Tired.

I am a whole mix of crazy emotions right now. I'm nervous, mad, sad, tired, exhausted, and excited at the same time.

The good:

I got off campus approval for the upcoming school year. I'm going to have my own apartment! I'm really excited, but it's going to mean cutting back on EVERYTHING.

I had a girls night with B last night. It was nice just to sit and watch TV and go to the new hookah joint together. I needed that.

On to the bad:

I feel like the world hates me right now. I've had some of the nastiest arguments with two of the people that I'm closest with. I'm so stressed out about school, money, and this huge move, and this is the last thing that I need.

I'm so freaking tired of being ignored. I'm tired of being blamed for everything. I'm tired of being kept in the dark and finding out things the hard way. I'm pissed that nobody wants to tell me anything and that I look like the bad guy, when I'm really not. I'm sick of being told one thing one second, and the complete opposite the next. One second I'm right, next I'm wrong. One minute, I'm the best thing ever to walk the face of the earth, next I'm the most awful human ever to exist. I'm a nervous wreck and I am so lost. I feel like I'm losing everything over something so stupid.

I just want answers.

This is me, and I'm just (barely) alive.