Time is going by!

Man, half of my summer semester is already done! These next four weeks look to be fairly smooth, A&P II shouldn't be THAT big of a deal.

I got more tea from the tea store. I think it's ok to say that I'm totally hooked on drinking tea. I feel sooooo much better now that I've been going through a few tumblers a day of it. I'm just so hydrated!

If you hate rants, I suggest you stop reading right here.

I was reading a blog post from Adam of Owl City. He was talking about how grateful he was for the opportunities he had been given and how blessed he was to have a God that loves him. Adam kept saying how he was nothing without God, and how awesome it was that he could spread the Lord's message through his position as an internationally acclaimed artist. I have to hand it to Adam, it was pretty ballsy to just pour his heart and soul into that blog post. I loved every word of it! It was a wonderful blog until....

Cue the Christian haters.

I've got to give it to some of Adam's non-believing fans, they really did make some righteous idiots out of themselves. One girl especially, Caitlin, just would not shut up. I mean, seriously, you say you idolize this man, yet you tell him that God doesn't exist and that everything Adam has accomplished was because he did some hard work and God did nothing? Oh hell no.

On the other hand, there were some believers out there who made some nice ass-wipes out of themselves, too. And there were some atheists who defended Adam, and there were some Christians who spoke well, too. I just wish I could thank those folks for being so cool about the heated situation.

I don't know why I got so irked over those comments that I just HAD to write a blog about it. I guess it's one of those your-two-cents-doesn't-buy-jack-shit moments. Really, word of advice to EVERYONE: keep your damn mouth shut when it comes to someone's beliefs, be it religious, moral, or political, whatever! It's not that hard to present your case on a subject without attacking the other person's standards and morals. I can stand a civil debate every now and then, but I certainly don't go looking for an argument, which is the case in Adam's blog.

If someone believes in something so fiercely that they'd die for it, don't try to change their mind, they aren't going to budge and you're going to look really stupid. As long as you're not into something illegal, go right on ahead, do your thing. Just don't try to change my mind about anything I believe in. That won't get you anywhere with anyone.

I know I'm not the world's best Christian, but I still try to live for God as much as I can, and to see Adam posting something so wonderful and moving was amazing and inspirational. I certainly don't think that it was right for his fans to go about telling him that he is wrong. Maybe it's just because I believe in what he believes. Or maybe I'm just getting old. Who knows?

This is me, and I'm just alive.

Damn.

My 20th birthday went pretty well. I got quite a bit of cool stuff for my birthday, now it's just a matter of finding a spot for it in this tiny dorm room. I had a really great time with my family and Boyfriend, however the majority of my so-called friends didn't even try to contact me to see what I was doing for my birthday, so I didn't have a party or anything.

Parents and I went and got our phone service switched, so now I'm back in the land of iPhones and 3G. It's amazing to think how we even survived without cell phones back in the day.

Reality came and bit me in the ass this week. I've been sooooo bored these past few days. I seriously think I'm going to die if I don't get out of here for a good long while. I'm supposed to go home on Thursday, which can't get here soon enough. Hopefully I get to catch up on rest and quality time with my friends and family. They're the only thing keeping me sane in this social blackhole I'm living in.

I really wonder sometimes how people can stand to be so selfish at times...

This is me, and I'm just alive.

It's been too long.

I'm emotionally exhausted. NewTown is just absolutely draining me. Mom and Dad aren't being much help either. Mom lied to me big time yesterday and now both me and her are in trouble with Dad. I'm not going home for my stupid birthday. There's no point in me just going home to get disappointed.

Boyfriend's 21st went pretty well. I think he had a good time with his friends.

I've been feeling so down lately. Sometimes I just wish I could die and be in eternal happiness instead of this hellhole I'm stuck in.

This is me, and I'm just alive.

Tuesday, June 7th.

It's sooooo hot! NewTown is getting rather toasty. I've been camping out in my room for the past three days because it's too hot to do anything outside.

Boyfriend and I reconciled yesterday. We've both vowed to change our attitudes and some bad habits that we have in order to make "us" work. I get to see him on Thursday! Our one year is on Saturday

Dad and I have started a nightly Bible study together. It's kind of weird that he asked me to do this in the first place, but I guess it helps keep us close since I'm so far away. I gotta figure out what I'm gonna do for Father's Day...

A new hookah bar opened up in the big city, so I'm going to go with Boyfriend to check it out on Thursday. Apparently it's really nice and the hookah is swell. Gonna go get my Middle Eastern on!

My phone service still sucks butt. Hopefully I'll be able to switch carriers next weekend!

This is me, and I'm just alive.

Another ending and a delayed beginning.

I broke up with Boyfriend today. I don't really know how to feel. I almost feel like nothing could get worse here. First, I lose all of my friends, apartment, connections, almost everything. Now I have nothing to look backward to. I don't know whether to feel liberated or upset. I'm just so confused. Too much change in a matter of days. I'm just ready to fall apart.

Two weeks until my birthday, and I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do.

I just want to go home.

This is me, and I'm just alive.

Landlines and...nothing else.

Today was my second day of class. First day wasn't so bad, we got out super early and I got to hang out with my lab table for a bit. Today was rather boring, lots of lectures and stuff. This class is extremely fast paced, but I won't complain because we get take-home exams =]

Boyfriend is coming over for the weekend! I'm really excited to see him. It's only been a week and I'm already suffering withdrawals. I'd probably die if he didn't do his best to keep me company through the distance.

I got a landline phone today due to the lack of cell phone service around here. Sound quality absolutely sucks, but at least it's better than trying to get with someone on Skype or Facetime. I never realized how reliant I've become on 3G services until this week.

I'm trying really hard to remain optimistic here, but with the classmates that I have (either old enough to have kids, have kids, jocks, or foreign exchange) it's really hard. I don't do much after classes except sit in my room after running errands.

Seven and a half weeks, girl.

This is me, and I'm just alive.