I had a random comment on my blog from someone named "randomguy," and I thought I'd address it. He kept reiterating that he was "just a random guy." Either 1) this person thinks they're TOTALLY not obvious at the fact that they really aren't random or 2) this person really is just a random guy that likes to point out that he's a random guy.
To answer your statement, "randomguy," I'm not totally over "him." I ended the relationship before either one of us was ready for it to be over. I am working diligently to learn to live without him and teach myself that I am ok being on my own. It sucks breaking up after dating for so long, and it hurts. A lot. I said that I was beginning to let the relationship go, not that I was completely over him and ready to say "HELLO WORLD! I AM SINGLE AND READY TO ROCK AND ROLL!" No. No no no.
I was asked on a date today, and I realized that I'm not ready to go on dates just yet, and I felt horrible for turning the guy down. I knew in my heart that I wouldn't be totally into it and that it would just be downright painful for me. In the end, it was for the best, and one day I will be able to date again. Just not right now. Too many things went so wrong that I just need time to heal.
This blog is meant for me to 1) vent and 2) share my story so that others know that it's ok to miss someone once you break it off. It's ok to cry your eyes out and grieve for a while. It's ok to be sad, but you also need to know that life does go on and you WILL move on, but only if you let yourself. My prayer is that this blog illustrates my journey through school, love, and life and that others will see themselves in me, and learn from my mistakes and can use my good decisions to help them succeed when they're in the same situation.
If you take issue with that, then too damn bad. I won't stop being honest. I won't stop sharing my story.
This is me, and I'm just alive.
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