Time goes by...

...so freaking fast! I can't believe it's already the end of October. Where has this year gone??

I guess you could tell that I've been super busy with school. Things just keep piling up and it's starting to get really overwhelming. I feel like I'm hanging on to my sanity by my hookah hose. It's definitely been tough, but I'm so close to the end of this semester that I can't quit now!

New guy and I decided to just be friends. We're both super busy (me with school, him with baseball). I was actually really relieved to have that off my plate. I don't think I could handle much more of anything after these past couple of weeks.

I got to visit my best friend of all time a few weeks ago. I haven't seen him since March, so it was really nice to get together and catch up. I finally got to hang out with some Middle Eastern people. I felt right at home!

I went back to AnyTown last weekend for my fraternity initiation. I had soooo much fun reconnecting with all of my brothers and sisters. I came to the realization how alone I feel in NewTown and I did NOT want to leave Anytown! I cried almost the whole way home. I know I don't have much longer till I can move back to the big city, but Spring 2013 seems like an extremely long time right now.

I made some new friends this week, too. I went to my friend's hometown and met all of her crew and they really opened up to me, which was such a huge surprise. I have never felt so accepted since I moved to NewTown. I really hope I get to see them more often. It's really cool to see a group of friends that are as tight knit as my fraternity family is. Good to know there's still a lot of love to give out there =]

I've been feeling homesick lately (if you can't already tell). It's still really hard being here without all my old friends. I try my hardest to keep in contact with them, but sometimes texting just doesn't cut it. I need to get a job so I can go visit more often. I really thought I'd be able to walk away and cut everyone/everything off, but it hasn't been quite that easy.

Wise words of the post:

"He who plants thorns must never expect to gather roses." Don't ever think that getting on people's bad side will get you anywhere. Creating enemies will never do you any good. One might think that having enemies and doing everything you can to live better than them and make sure they know it is the way to go, but it'll only come back to bite you in the butt. There's wayyyy better things you could be using your energy on.

On another note, please please please be careful when partying this weekend. Know your limits, and if someone you know gets sick, DO NOT hesitate to get them some help. You don't want to be attending a funeral because you didn't want a friend to get mad at you for taking them to a hospital. I want all of you reading my next post!

This is me, and I'm just alive.

Home, sweet home.

FINALLY I got to come home for a weekend! It feels so good to be back among civilization and culture and population! I came home Friday and just hung out with my mom. We went out to Cracker Barrel for dinner and watched TV for the rest of the night. Yesterday I woke up rather late, but I did get a little bit of work done. I got my hair cut and colored in Anytown. It looks so much better! Then I went to the big city to hang out with my friends. L and I went to a brand new hookah bar, then went to the regular joint. My ex popped up, which was kind of awkward at first, but I was so excited to be back in my niche that I forgot he was even there until he left.

L and I smoked hookah for awhile, then the owner played music and got me up to dance, so I danced my skinny butt off! I pulled some friends up with me, and we went for a solid 20 minutes! I was so sweaty and tired after that, but I had so much fun that I didn't really care. It felt so good to dance again! I didn't realize how much I missed it until last night. After a short break, the owner played again and I got to dance with some BEAUTIFUL Sudanese girls and these two really geeky white guys. I thought I was going to die of laughter when a broom handle we were using as a dance prop got handed off to one of the guys. I loved his enthusiasm!

One of my old high school friends showed up while I was on the floor. It was really good to see her for a bit. I got to see soooo many people that I haven't seen for weeks (in one case, several months!). I'm sad that I have to go back to Newtown tomorrow, but I'm working on coming home for Halloween weekend. I already miss everyone terribly, and I haven't even left yet.

Wise words of the post:

"Realize that the world is a school and you are here to learn." So learn, darnit! If something isn't working out for you, then stop doing it! If it isn't working out for someone else, then chances are it isn't going to work for you, either. I'm learning a lot about people that I never thought would be a part of their personality, and I'm also seeing people change because of their (sometimes very recent) past. Some awful and wonderful things have come out of their experiences, some people have risen above it, some don't realize they're about to hit rock bottom. Look around you! You and I have so many teachers and we don't even take advantage of it! So work hard, study hard, and for God's sake, realize that all play and no work is going to get you absolutely nowhere.

This is me, and I'm just alive.

I woke up because September ended.

I thought it was a clever October title =D

Weeeeellll my exams went really well! I didn't fail any of them, which is awesome! I think I'm starting to get a hold of all this nursing stuff.

Clinicals start in two days!! I'm so excited to go interview my patient tomorrow. It's gonna be great! Having Thursdays off is going to be a great bonus as well. No more 10 hour classes for us!

I've been really unproductive this weekend, but I think I deserve it considering I've lived in the library for the past two weeks. This week is looking to be similar, but I'm starting to get used to it.

New guy and I have been able to hang out a lot this weekend. Friday, we just looked through old photos on my computer. I cooked dinner for him yesterday (thank goodness it turned out well!) and we watched Grey's Anatomy. I had such a good time with him! I am a total believer in the saying "something good comes around when you least expect it."

I read something on Rev Run's twitter the other day. "When the past calls, push the ignore button. It has NOTHING new to say!" I had a bit of a moment the other day where I felt really homesick and wanted everything to go back to the way it used to be, but then I read that advice and realized I am so much better off. I'm moving forward with my life and I'm becoming a better person day by day. I'm still learning to love myself, but it's certainly becoming easier every day when I'm rewarded with good grades and all the amazing new friends I have made throughout this journey in NewTown.

I suppose I should finish cleaning and do some homework. Three exams next week and I haven't studied one bit!

This is me, and I'm just alive.